Our sweet dog is gone

by , posted on December 30th, 2011 in Parenting




The tears finally came for the eight year-old boy.

He lied in bed, the light blue comforter with the fighter jets on it pulled up to his chin. And he cried for his friend, the one who’d been here even before him.

Garbo.

Our sweet, dumb-as-a-box-of-rocks dog. A pit bull mix of some sort whom David and I rescued from a local shelter when she was eight months old, to join our other dog, Gable. That was 10 1/2 years ago. Before we had kids. Before we were even married.

The two striped animals were instant best friends. They raced around the back yard together when they were younger, and even in the past couple months, Gable bit at her back legs, urging her on into one last chase.

But she wanted to go inside. She was sure one of the kids was eating something, and if she just stuck fat black nose into their laps or followed them around, they would drop a crumb or two.

She was never wrong about that.

If you put your face on top of her wide head and sniffed, you’d be greeted with the most wonderful, musky smell. Sometimes I’d sit next to her on her favorite perch, on the landing of our stairs. I’d hug her and rest my head upon hers and inhale.

Last night, when David carried her 90-pound, limp body from our home, I wished I’d stopped him to get one last whiff of her unique self. But I was in a hurry for them to get to the emergency vet, to see if something could be done.

I knew she wasn’t going to make it, though.

David heard her take her last breath just as he pulled into the parking lot of the clinic. He closed her eyes for her, and a gurney was brought out. She was taken into a private room where David could say his goodbyes to her, even though she was already gone, and he buried his face in her head and took a last sniff for all of us.

Sage cried when we told her this morning. She had lots of questions: where was she? How come people get sick and don’t die but dogs do? Was it because she kicked her the night before when Garbo was trying to get into her lap as Sage ate her dinner at the table?

She didn’t remember when she made Garbo wear a hooded Little Einsteins’ rocket towel to match her own. Garbo loved the attention. Sage does remember Garbo wanting to be near her, though.

Sage and Garbo

Xander simply said, “I miss Barbo, Mommy.” She made an excellent recliner, and I think I have similar pictures of all the kids with her.

Xander and Garbo

And Sawyer, well, when we first told him, he had no reaction. But as the day went on, he wanted more specifics about exactly what happened. What she had done. How we knew she was sick. He eyed Gable suspiciously, wondering if he, too, would die in the night.

Then, at bedtime, he finally cried and said how much he missed her.

sawyer and garbo

I told him it was okay to be sad. That we’re all sad. And we all miss her.

She gave us 11 years of unconditional love. She always found a way to be right in the midst of everything.

Here she is in her usual spot: under the table and dreaming.

under the table and dreaming

Now she’s gone, begging table scraps, rolling around in the grass and chasing rabbits in heaven.

Goodbye, Garbo. We love you.

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43 Responses to “Our sweet dog is gone”

  1. Erin Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 2:54 am

    I am just crying for you! It’s so hard to lose such a treasured and precious family member!
    My heart goes out to you! xoxo
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you so much, Erin. It’s been a tough go so far.

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  2. paula Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 3:13 am

    This story made me cry. How lucky you were to have such a perfect friend. I am so sorry for your loss.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you, Paula. We are lucky we had her for as long as we did.

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  3. Varda (SquashedMom) Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 3:19 am

    Oh, Cheryl. I am so sorry. It’s just so hard to lose a beloved family pet.

    I have told our family cat Cocoa that she must live forever because my son Jacob (the autistic one) is just so attached to her, I don’t know how he will survive her demise.

    Big hugs to you and your family. Big, big hugs.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Cats seem to live for a lot longer than dogs, don’t they? My kids were definitely feeling the loss again this morning. :(

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  4. tracy@sellabitmum Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 8:39 am

    I am so sorry Cheryl. Thinking about you guys. xoxo
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you, my lovely friend..

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  5. Evonne Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 9:24 am

    I’m so sorry. It’s so hard to lose a pet. They are more than just an animal – they are our family.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    She was definitely one of the family. My poor other dog is missing her for sure.

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  6. Gramps Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 9:59 am

    Damn—-it’s so hard

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    Cheryl Reply:

    It really, truly is..

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  7. Ali Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 10:35 am

    I am SO sorry for your loss. And if it makes you feel any better, I know what you mean about the smell. My best bud left us almost 4 years ago and I still miss that. Sometimes I’ll be near a dog with the same scent and it makes me smile. Hang in there.

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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you! I’m glad I’m not the only one. It probably sounds really bizarre to love the smell of a dog! My other dog doesn’t have any scent at all (other than his breath!).

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  8. Christine Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 10:52 am

    So, so sorry for your loss! This brought tears to my eyes.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you so much. The toughest is watching my kids cry..

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  9. Kelli/Plangirl Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 12:02 pm

    So sad for you, Cheryl. We lost our precious pooch, Osbourn, a year ago in October. It was very sudden–just like that he was gone. The tears of my son when we told him still make my heart ache. We still talk about Osbourn and miss him so much. We did welcome 2 new Husky puppies into our lives in July and we are very happy to have Kade and Kaiya, but they will never take the place of our beloved Osbourn, Ozzy, Bobo.

    Hugs to all of you.

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    Cheryl Reply:

    Aww…I know exactly how you feel. We are glad we have our other dog – and I don’t want to even think about what will happen when he goes. He was our first “child.” We’re talking about possibly getting another dog, both for the kids and for our other dog. But no dog can truly replace another one.

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  10. Jack@TheJackB Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 12:30 pm

    Very sorry for your loss. I had to say goodbye to my dog four years ago and I still miss him. That big lug was my best friend.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    It’s amazing how much we miss them, isn’t it? I think it’s worse as an adult than as a kid for some reason.

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  11. NotJustAnotherJennifer Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 12:38 pm

    Oh Cheryl, that’s so hard. When we had to put our Dobie down, I knew it would be sad, but I didn’t realize how much it would affect our every day life. No longer hearing his tails click the wooden floor made the house feel eerily silent. It took a lot of getting used to. Hugs to you and the fam.
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    NotJustAnotherJennifer Reply:

    Sorry, that should have said “nails”. :)
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Hee! Tails made it kind of more fun. Altho my other dog has one of those tails that hurts if it smacks you in the face! We are glad, actually, that we have our other dog. The house doesn’t seem quite so empty..

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  12. April Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 12:41 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you, so very much.

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  13. Wendy Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 12:54 pm

    I fighting back the tears right now!! Our pup will be ten in March and while I know the end is looming I am just not ready for it. I’m so sorry for your loss. Sweet Garbo is indeed playing chase!
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Make sure you take lots of pictures with your doggie and your little girl. xo

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  14. Elaine Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 1:07 pm

    I’m about to sob. This reminds me of my dogs growing up!! It’s so hard to lose a pet that is SUCH a part of the family. Thinking of you all… xoxo
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Aw, thanks..she definitely was a big part of our family.

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  15. Samantha Gowen Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 2:08 pm

    Aw, this breaks my heart. I remember when Garbo first came home; such a sweetie. It’s so hard to say goodbye, one of the hardest things we have to do as pet owners. My heart is with the whole family.

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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thanks, Sam. I know you’ve gotten your fair share of furry hugs from our big, sweet girl. xo

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  16. Jennifer Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 2:08 pm

    My heart hurts for you and your family. Sending you love.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you so much. I truly appreciate it.

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  17. julie gardner Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 2:40 pm

    I am so sad for you.

    And so happy that Garbo had such a loving family.

    But still sad for you.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thanks, my lovely friend. xo

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  18. Jen Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 6:18 pm

    I am so so so sorry for your loss. This has got to be so hard on you and your family.
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    Cheryl Reply:

    Thank you, so much. We’ve been trying to distract the kids – and our other dog is getting spoiled rotten. I *might* have given him a pancake when no one was looking.

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  19. By Word of Mouth Musings Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 7:07 pm

    Dog love, its the best, they love us no matter what we do or how we look … and now he will love you from afar xxx
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  20. Claudia Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 7:40 pm

    Wow, that story left a lot of replies, goes to show you the power of our pets and the impact they have on us, I hope you and your family find comfort soon. I still have a picture of my favorite cat right here next to me. I love the part about smelling her musky head….such imagery in your writing, I also loved the sentence “under the table and dreaming”….great DMB reference!

    Have a Happy New Year!

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  21. Jen Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 9:02 pm

    Cheryl I’m so sorry. I know how much you guys loved her.
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  22. Laci Says:

    December 30th, 2011 at 11:50 pm

    Oh such a sad and sweet post. I am so sorry that your family lost your beloved. I cannot imagine! I am not looking forward to that day at all!
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  23. Lindsey (aka modchik) Says:

    December 31st, 2011 at 1:06 pm

    Cheryl no words can express the sorrow I feel when I hear a friend looses a beloved family member. Big hugs to you and your kiddos.
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  24. Rachel {at} Mommy Needs a Vacation Says:

    December 31st, 2011 at 6:11 pm

    So so so sorry Cheryl. We lost our 10 year old Vandy in May and it is absolutely gut wrenching.

    Hugs to you and your family!!
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