Mommypants Moment: …and it was wonderful
by Cheryl, posted on November 22nd, 2010 in Mommypants Moment
The worst thing that happened to the blogger world was when Nicole of The Mombshelter went back to work, shaping young minds, after her year’s maternity leave was up (blame Canada!). Because she doesn’t post as much as she used to, and I miss her amazing writing, which makes me laugh as often as it makes me cry. Mostly, I just miss my friend. I’m so glad she’s here today.
I feel the need to take them off or at least loosen my belt a notch.
As if that would relieve the imposing feelings of constriction.
Of breathlessness.
They’re too tight. Against the bloat of decision and duty and responsibility.
The guilt.
Weighing upon me and settling at my middle, which seems to be the way with most things. Carrying it at my waist. The well worn spot on my hip, that has known no vacancies for some time now.
Its the everythings, the unyielding weekday schedule, the brisk voices, the rush out the door, the reminding, the telling, the lost patience, the struggle.
With everything.
Leaving only short hours, minutes, for soft words and warm light, giggles and silly words.
Time.
To slow down. The luxury of stopping. Of looking up from the chores, from work, from appointments and errands and obligations.
To see their faces. Occupied. Without me.
Which has become the way.
And so I took them off.
Those mommy pants. Those shrouds of grocery lists and delayed vaccination schedules and kindergarten registration. They’ve begun to feel like shackles, an obvious simile. The truth of which I came to realize one sunshiney afternoon.
Because those pants? Were keeping me from being a mommy.
And so for that afternoon my mommy pants became super hero tights and a pirate’s wooden leg, a dinosaur’s roar and a black cat’s tail.
We jumped on the couch and ran down the hall. My movements no longer limited. And we all fell down, into a heap of blankets and pillows, pockets full of posies.
My mommy pants lay forgotten, crumpled on the floor.
Tags: mombshelter, mommypants moment
themombshell Reply:
November 22nd, 2010 at 8:31 pm
Yes, run right over and check out The Mombshelter, she is stunningly beautiful and hella smart, also she mostly keeps her pants on (mainly because bikini waxes are outrageously priced these days, and they hurt. Alot.)
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